Voice

VOICE!

What is voice, I actually discovered it today after watching the stupid video you send me 2 months back. Everything was fine in that video but the moment I heard the part of your voice, suddenly some nerves weaken down inside. A numbness provoked my senses to become stagnant for a time being. I couldn't hear you, I couldn't feel that happiness I used to have after imagining your voice. I know you are only in my memories now, memories saved in my brain, soul, and the fucking phone gallery. It's difficult to get used to it because now your voice became rare to hearken. The irony of human life is, the result of less supply and increase in demand leads to scarcity. I am into that phase. I am having the pain of being so impoverished without you. I'm still not begging but yes your voice just speeded up my heartbeat at 10:30 pm and dragged me into the memory lane of ours.

Finally

Finally, the day is hereafter one week of your decision to get unlocked from each other. I am eventually realising you are no more in my life. Just after the lunch break, a sudden storm shook me from the bottom of my heart. A continuous pain is nodding me from the nucleus of my body. In this whole week, I was in nausea, a ray of hope was caressing my brain, my heart, my kidneys that you will understand and appreciate my feelings for you. Though you appreciated and that is why you chose to free me to live my life. You couldn't bear to see me shattering all the time when you couldn't reach my expectation. You couldn't see me getting angry when we talked after 5 fucking days. You couldn't see me crying alone when you failed to show your affection. I'm lucky that I fall for a guy who cares for me so much that he freed me from all these. But still, something is shoving me from the core. 

Yes, I am not in love with but it's a stupid feeling that is freaking me out.